i actually had to stop running. and laid on the bus stop for a few good minutes. it was a stitch so sharp i thought something had burst within me and i was gonna die.

cui.

Labels: biathlon, run, swim

the first day in class has filled me up with a sort of dread. apart from the frustrating queues to get textbooks, the reopening of school means many, many other things.

just before the very first class ended, the prof asked for a class representative. a volunteer. lets face it, no one really likes to be bogged down by chores. i cautiously half-raised my hand, in a joking manner of course. we giggled. then while going through the class list he called out 'john teo'. they burst out in laughter. i didn't quite believe it.

of late, i've been pretty distracted. i could be spinning my pen, staring at the letters and numbers that fill the pieces of paper as the rumblings of the seminars go on, yet in my mind, i'm tardily plucking petals at a dimly lit corner.

i really should know better.

this should be my last entry for a while.

Labels: life, nbs

tuesday - orchard w cw & zy. we had a short time in town. then settled for a drink at the rooftop of the esplande. they called that place orgo. i laid there, soaking up the nightlife, the city lights, the company... it was good.

wednesday - morning tennis. i thought i sprained my ankle. tennis is a tricky sport. leo's birthday supper.


thursday - kenai/casper @johor bahru. heart pounding speed of go karting at plentong and the glorious seafood at taman sri tebrau. we spent some time at city square, too. it was good getaway. just before the term starts again.

friday - vijay's farewell dinner at newton. yet another round of seafood. when we didn't managed to find a place for all the l4d goodness, i bid them farewell.


saturday - gym/swim/rest. poker/guitar hero at jonas's place. i took that drive down. we played cards. it was nice, meeting up with them. laughing. trash talking. though i did lose alittle. it was close to seven in the morning before i slumbered.


sunday - beach. with the gessvball gang. it was good. to jump the serve. to dive, tumble and roll on the sand. to play with the gang. we found ourselves at red dot at dempsey where t'was the monster green beer. and finally, joce's place until dawn almost came.


monday - gym/rest/bake maple cookies. having stayed up the whole night, i didn't do much throughout the day. until i dropped by ah lians to meet the casper/kenai gang. soon after, i found myself yet on another rooftop of one of the blocks at hall three, heart in one hand, mug of whiskey in the other, enjoying the moment while it lasted.


tuesday - school offcially reopens/ab214 pre-test writing. i woke up and raced to complete my assignment. and then it was a good light evening at the track. cutting through the wind with the sprints was most reposeful. i reach home now, rethinking the day, feeling a little dread in me.


It is the drink of men who think.
And feel no fear nor fetter -
Who do not drink to senseless sink,
But drink to think the better.
- Anonymous

Labels: beer, friends, life, nbs, vacation

i've been sick these couple of days. fever, coughs and what nots. my bedroom has become something of a forbidden lair. i laid on my bed munching on a nice cold chunk of guava and then my brother's head popped in at somewhere around the doorway with his hand over his nose and mouth. i said to him 'welcome'. and then he goes away.

i've had two bouts of flu this season. sounds just about like me, i realise.

=

i have apologized over and over for not being enough, or who you want or need. on the contrary, i am in fact no superman. there are many wrong calls i've made to regret but i realise i have nothing more to say 'cause this is clearly me wanting to make the most of what i have left. we had something we thought was gonna last forever, but even that is naive when we aren't quite prepared to give it all. do we even know what it is to give it all? i can't be sure, but i could say i've tried at least and when things still still still STILL have a way of falling apart over and over when you least expect...

that is when its probably time.

it is this... this very perspective that has kept me from looking back at our history. but believe me when i say this, when it was just you and i and that timelessness, it really was good for me, too. i had meant it all.


"chances are, we'll find a new equation."
- five for fighting, chances.

Labels: life, sick

i'd like to think i've a pair of iron lungs. but its the second time this holidays i've actually have to take breathes from the inhaler. whatever virus, h1n1 or not, that is going around, it sure is vicious...

Labels: life

sometimes i wish could be at two places at the same time. other times it feels like i'm everywhere but no where.

"I'm crazy about you. And I want you to know, if I had the choice of hanging out with anyone in the entire world, or sitting at home with you, eating a pizza, watching a crappy TV show, I'd choose you everytime." - scrubs; season 3, epi 20

Labels: life, scrubs

i had the hardest laugh for the year.

Labels: gessvball