scrooooo you, you, you and you!

last night i closed my text at something close to three, having the last hour spent being a little distracted by the things that went wrong(or the things that could have been right). i dived into bed and found it hard to reach that point of oblivion. there seem to never be a line distinct enough.

it was my first test in ages. hours and hours of mind numbing late nights. i felt good as my paper was collected and the chatter that went off and i grabbed my bag to leave.

would have been nice if i was able to let the mood just carry on through the night and even morning.

i was in a moment. would have been nice if t'was someone to share it with...

before i start all over tonight.

life ain't picture perfect, i guess. especially sometimes when its suppose to count.

lecture six,

and so i do.

i wish i could play techno music while i shower.

its two and a half hours into september. half an hour to three. i hope to be in bed by then. just a little more to go with the tutorial. just in the time for tomorrows morning class. you know, i used to think i was good at numbers. until i took on financial management. the pace of life has indeed kicked in. i find myself up in the wee hours flipping textbooks & notes, scribbling cursives i've never scribbled before, eyes half shut, oblivious to the ghosts of block thirty nine, and i wonder if this is really worth it, and how i would fare for the semester. and i continue to embrace the sleepless week.

i like to think of beginnings. they're always special, aren't they?

to those who've wandered in here yet again for reasons i cannot conceive, be good and goodnight.

"cheer up everybody! 'cause the shit hasn't even started yet."

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