wmp:

i wish i was more articulate in times of need...

wmp: staind, outside

i caught 'thumbsucker' on starworld and i thought it was a meaingful film.

i think its true that people make me nervous and awkward that i wonder how i'd be like twenty years from now.

i know how fickled this may sound but just five minutes ago, i made up my mind about accountancy yet again.

anyway, here is what i wanted to share. enjoy.

"That's 'cause we all wanna be problemless. To fix ourselves. We look for some magic solution to make us all better, but none of us really know what we're doing. And why is that so bad? That's all we humans can do. Guess. Try. Hope. But, Justin, just pray you don't fool yourself into thinking you've got the answer. Because that's bullshit. The trick is living without an answer. [pause] I think." - Dr. Perry Lyman (Keanu Reeves)

Labels: football, movie

wmp: funeral for a friend, hours

it was a grueling drive down to the airport. and such a chore to park the vehicle. with the car, its been only enjoyable cruising down a 3am clear road.

we had a sumptuous one at popeyes. i thought the bolster abuse was hilarious. and then we saw huimin left for the second time.

eventually, t'were four of us, midnight at the basketball court fumbling with the ball, and the realisation of my lack of stamina. we took a dip in the pool before heading out for supper and then back to my place where we briefly touched on the bottle of chivas. drinks are optional, but i kinda like spending late nights with the people i've had a memorable history with. we tend to talk abt the past, and things we never knew happened.

so comes the end of this week. i wonder whats gonna follow. come monday i'm gonna make a couple of calls and see what comes out of 'em. the rest of the days will be spent at home tying up some of the loose ends of my life. i could finish my model kit for good even though the level of satisfaction of it being completed will be slightly lower now that i had clumsily sealed my fingerprints with a layer of top coat. i could tidy up my room, continue throwing the piles of lecture notes everywhere before burning them away. i could go to the gym, for a swim, roller blading even. lotsa nights out having supper. and if i get lucky, we get to go to the beach at the end of the week.

at the end of it all, i'm just waiting for something to happen.

haha, dad's right.

Labels: driving, gessvball

wmp: how six songs collide, norwegian recycling

i've been trying to recollect on how i've spend the last two weeks ever since i've orded - it feels like yesterday actually - and do a day by day entry but everything seems to be one big blur.


so, in nutshell, t'was the chinese new year at my grandmother's place for a couple of nights of blackjack, and then we were at cs's birthday surprise came monday night(i can only imagine how he stepped into his bedroom of a bunch of us), kuishin bo on valentines day(hungry people obliterating snow crabs, lol) and, of course, raffles town club with the entire gessvball gang. aka the inebriates(see bottom left). for most of the week i saw felix & huimin, probably the two most free people in the world. haha.



t'was some afternoon i caught 'ah long' with sj & felix at marina sq. and then as we were looking around at springfield, we heard a good mix of songs. two weeks of searching and last night i finally found the guy churning those mash ups out. norwegian recycling. very neat stuff he's got.

cjseven was pretty hilarious but just alrite on the whole. i watched 'meet the spartans' on tvshack. not exactly something i'd go to the movies for but entertaining still. 'jumper' was cool. but i still wanna be superman.

i'm glad my model kit is finally taking shape after 6546876138318 days(since the alevels). what a waste of time and money. i can't wait to be done with it for good.

for the past week i've been kinda comfortable going to bed at 4am in the morning until i had to head down to the beach last saturday morning. quite a drag to reset the alarm an hour after an hour. they say its better to wake up in the early morning and i thought i'd like that too though i don't really know how now. besides, i enjoy the peace in the night.

i'm really lookin' forward to something but i can't exactly put my finger on it...

Labels: beach, beer, birthday, gessvball, go5, movie, ord, vodka

wmp: daniel powter, free loop

you know, redang was like my everest. and so maybe it's understandable that knowing the trip might not happen at all now makes me wanna kill myself and everybardie around me.

that aside,

i think i've got the week more or less figured out.

life is good.

Labels: ord

dammit, i can't sleep now so i'll probably sleep the whole day away again and then be bored all over on saturday night.

sian.

Labels: ord, sleep

wmp: a1, caught in the middle

we spent the entire evening in town wandering about and then had a couple of drinks at molly malone's. cheating at poker is fuckin' fun especially when it doesn't matter if we get caught. half a deck was eventually drenched in strongbow. the last train led to my place where we chatted while sipping on whiskey in the chilly breeze by the poolside.

they called it camaraderie. i think i'll miss that.

so it was some 3am after setting the chivas bottle aside. jenrine filled me in on the upcoming phase of school. very exciting.

i met up with the go5 the following morning back at town. i just hope the weeks ahead are fuckin' good times together...

i keep forgeting my handphone now has a camera.

Labels: beer, go5, ns, ord

wmp: moby, porcelain

i'm still trying to let it all sink in... i'm fuckin' going to ord!

my sleep has been kinda upset since supper that night with the gessvball gang. the night after i watched the second season of heroes until some 3am. it was good.

i spent my last couple of my days clearing out my drawer. one of the things i cleared out was a tin of fifty cent coins and i remembered how i used to play with them in the office until i found an even greater addiction in cards that led to a few decks of them lieing around.

today, i had my camp passes returned, clearance form almost done with and my drawer's finally emptied, ready for the next guy in line. i think i'll miss the nsf lounging area. and i guess for all the times i thought life was fucked up, it wasn't nearly as bad as how i thought it was. i think i'll miss maju.

woohoo.

see you all at molly malones!

Labels: ns, ord