i've been sick these couple of days. fever, coughs and what nots. my bedroom has become something of a forbidden lair. i laid on my bed munching on a nice cold chunk of guava and then my brother's head popped in at somewhere around the doorway with his hand over his nose and mouth. i said to him 'welcome'. and then he goes away.

i've had two bouts of flu this season. sounds just about like me, i realise.

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i have apologized over and over for not being enough, or who you want or need. on the contrary, i am in fact no superman. there are many wrong calls i've made to regret but i realise i have nothing more to say 'cause this is clearly me wanting to make the most of what i have left. we had something we thought was gonna last forever, but even that is naive when we aren't quite prepared to give it all. do we even know what it is to give it all? i can't be sure, but i could say i've tried at least and when things still still still STILL have a way of falling apart over and over when you least expect...

that is when its probably time.

it is this... this very perspective that has kept me from looking back at our history. but believe me when i say this, when it was just you and i and that timelessness, it really was good for me, too. i had meant it all.


"chances are, we'll find a new equation."
- five for fighting, chances.

Labels: life, sick

i'd like to think i've a pair of iron lungs. but its the second time this holidays i've actually have to take breathes from the inhaler. whatever virus, h1n1 or not, that is going around, it sure is vicious...

Labels: life

sometimes i wish could be at two places at the same time. other times it feels like i'm everywhere but no where.

"I'm crazy about you. And I want you to know, if I had the choice of hanging out with anyone in the entire world, or sitting at home with you, eating a pizza, watching a crappy TV show, I'd choose you everytime." - scrubs; season 3, epi 20

Labels: life, scrubs

i had the hardest laugh for the year.

Labels: gessvball

this is that fresh feeling

Labels: malaysia, nbs, redang, travel, vacation

Labels: poker

wmp: ride (tiesto Remix), cary brothers

we can parallel our lives, at some point of time, to almost anything. it can be the lyrics to a song. an episode of your favorite comedy drama. or a romance film even. where i am now, it feels like a round of texas hold'em poker, where the two fresh hole cards are just dealt and some shithead bets and raises to an amount that is just hard to follow. do you take that chance to see what hand the three window cards will bring? or do you fold and possibly regret(for the rest of your life)? nobody knows, really. but we play on anyway. its true. we can be on a collision course and not know it. at all...

Labels: life

it was some three weeks ago. i sat there alone, facing the traffic even though i wasn't quite paying attention to the fleeting vehicles, and for a full hour, even though i probably could finish the largest cup of green tea i paid for in five minutes. i sat there, mulling over things, a part of me being a little hopeful even, but mostly wondering why, and what the future beholds from there on. i never quite stopped because you've almost always been at the back of my mind...

"Life isn't measured in minutes, but in moments"
- the curious case of benjamin button

my brother and i covered some good ground. we ran into the dark, over a fence, over a gate, and then it turned into a long but reposeful walk back to the fitness corner not too far away from home. we had some challenge of pull ups and press ups. it was good company.

Labels: run