wmp: sum 41, underclass hero

it was two pretty decks of cards and an empty chivas bottle i left behind.

what i need is an epiphany. and strepsils for a throat that is as good as gone.

Labels: chalet, gessvball, go5, vodka

wmp: jay solo, my place

forbidden kingdom is freaky. gate of no gate. wtf?

i feel better than usual this morning even though probably the entire night was spent in the dreaming. i dreamt of being at the deeper waters but not too far away still from what looks like the shore of tinggi island with a couple of good friends. the boats had a way of sinking and miraculously come back afloat.

i was in primary school when our family made the trip to tinggi island and i guess why i remember so clearly is because of the dark waters that i couldn't really see the bottom to even though the water seemed clear. i was on a canoe and kinda challenged myself to paddle far offshore. it was erriely quiet out there when the crashing waves grew soft behind.

that was how i remembered it anyway.

quite frankly still, the thought of scuba diving unnerves me on so many levels. its so unnaturally quiet down below. i can't exactly describe this fear of being out of my own element but nobody seem to be able to relate. there're a whole lot of people out there who're dieing to scuba dive and i wonder whats wrong with them. haven't they watched 'jaws'?


dates i've marked down on the calendar...

260408 (am) ‘Breaking The Millionaire Code’ Seminar by Thomas Matthew
260408 (pm) sj's 21st birthday party
300408 iron man movie release (i wldn't miss this for the world)
010508 pay day/hsiang fa's return
010608 felix's 21st birthday
140608 kw's comm parade
260608 huimins return
280608 singapore's toy convention @ suntec city

Labels: dreams, fears, movie

i've been feeling absolutely lethargy for almost the entire week so much so that I've made up my mind to sleep the weekend off when it finally comes around.

a couple of days ago i felt like the most misunderstood guy ever and i really hate that. its such a bother to have to clear up the misunderstandings.

i guess it's no surprise that when it comes to the works of a word-smith, i'm nothing short of a failure, and for that i hope we can all just brush it all aside(or all of you can just, fuck off).

i never liked confrontations.

i think the cafe, being smacked right in the middle of the library, is pure evil. all i had was a cookies & cream vanilla frappe, and its already hard to just walk by the cafe .

Labels: friday, friends, life, sleep

it's been about a month and a half since ord. i've finished most of the things i've started long ago and tidied up my room good. there had been a couple of good parties. and by the end of this week, it would already be approx 250 hours of hanging out at the library....

the past week had been tiring. the nights have a way of stretching themselves making the morning especially hard to pull through. i came back home last friday night relieved that t'was a weekend ahead to finally have a full eight hours of blissful sleep but one thing kinda led to another and the weekend was long gone.

that friday night, after turning down a night of poker, i stayed up late in my sister's room hammering keys from the score sheet of 'memories of lightwaves' on her keyboard. i should say it was a start.

the next morning t'was a couple of games of volleyball at jjc which kinda wore me down. they were more exhausting than i had remembered, running for the quick balls that i never really knew how to. after a three hour nap at home i took a train down to felix place where the three of us nuts sweated it out on the basketball court. in between the games i laid on the floor gasping like some fish. i had the small victory etched in my mind since but that was it for me after that. we had supper at chinatown, a very restless night on bed and then a full day at the beach on sunday. the night at one degree fifteen was most reposeful except for the lack of breeze perhaps and the absolute fatigue.

it was the first time i gambled with peanuts & peas.

i woke up on monday morning feeling the terrible aches on the legs, backs, shoulders even but without the sunburns(sunscreen!). while brushing my teeth my mum barged in and very apologetically told me to call off the bangkok trip. i didn't know what else to say, maybe except that i didn't feel like going anywhere too anyway.

sometimes we wait, and we wait for so long for something to happen that when it finally does, it isn't half as exciting as it was from the start anymore...

on tuesday, three of us samuel, hf and myself went down to ntu. i thought it was funny. a couple of years back it was the same three of us too, in the same og back in college. i'm pretty exciting about this upcoming phase.

life in the library has been pretty swell in a way. though sometimes i wish it was more happening, there are even more times that i feel it can't get any better than this. the surroundings would make a nice study haunt if i actually lived nearby. somewhere along the month i was asked to take a couple of photographs.

i seem to have an immense amount of time to myself everywhere i've been(from ns to work here), even though i seem to be misusing it each time. like watching comedy after comedy and running through online manga for three straight days...

'nuff said.

Labels: beach, gessvball, go5, naruto, nightlife, sleep