i will pull myself together.

i will.

like a graffiti on the black, black wall...

3am, the night of the last of it all, and as i collapsed onto bed after puking supper away, deep in breaths, feverish, and really sore in the throat, i can't help but wonder if this bout of fever that came on friday night was a test of whether i would still bother with the little things when the going gets tough. or if it was just another chance to make amends and set things straight again. the thing is, somewhere along the way in my life, i find that i just can't anymore. and that might as well be my curse...?

i find myself less alone. but i wonder how i have fared still. all these years for that matter.

i wished i had more time for rest. 'cause here i go again.

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i've too many wild ideas for my own good. i'm almost giggling to myself.

i've been sleeping alot. eight hours through the mornings. and then another three to four in the afternoons. i'm beginning to feel heavy in the head everytime.

tomorrow will be yet another blank day. i wish we could just all head down to the beach. i wanna have sunburns. and sand in my hair and underwear.

i haven't shaved in a week.

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wmp: oasis, keep the dream alive

i wish, things were different.

i really do.

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at midnight we shook his hand and wished him all over. to be offically 21. i wonder what that truly means. another milestone? or just another year?

in the end, there were only seven of us. in the bedroom. singing sappy love songs. m2m. bsb. playing cards. taunting each other. trying hard not to lose. 'cause when you pass a certain point, the drinks just become hard to stomach. and it really was. for one of us at least. haha.

"sing another luuuuuuurrrrve song..."

'like birds being strangled', i quote someone ;) i can't think of a better way to describe us. haha.

i guess, the million dollar question is...

"for who?"

at half past five in the morning i got lift home which was swell. i had a good time. they say life is all about the memories you collect. that night was definitely another one of those pieces.

till next time!

Labels: birthday, friends, gessvball, go5, life, vodka