wmp: green day, time of your life

dinner was served at eight pm last night. it was plain fish and veg. i thought it lacked alitle something so i opened a packet of prawn crackers and poured half of it over my plate of rice. pa didn't seem pleased. ma, although added to the snide comments, reached out to my plate too.

i woke up at ten this morning, switched the air-con off and took off my shirt and laid on my bed clutching the guitar awkwardly, clumsily plucking the simple 'time of your life' tabs. i seem to go be going no where. then my brother walked in with his usual cheeky grin everyday. he asked how long have i been like that. i must have looked like a mess.

when i finally went downstairs for lunch, ma said, 'why your hair look like monster like that'. i poured whats left of that prawn crackers packet onto my chicken rice.

i sat by the refrigerator taking my time with the cup of juice. my brother asked me to guess what fruit and veg goes into that juice as he scrutinized the carton. he actually turned it into a game.

so here i am yet again.

deep down i think i'm gonna regret this someday. me receding into my bedroom. watching clouds if i bother to pull up the curtains. appearing offline. lazy guitar playing. table tops, cluttered with decks of cards. sweet wrappers. magazines. and paintbrushes i'll probably nv touch again.

this lying on my bed, thinking of all the things that could have happen.

in my whole life, i nv actually tried to take that chance before. yet here i am, asking myself, if i shld try again.

"i hope you have the time of your life"

Labels: life, monday