wmp: u2, walk on.

i walked around the office on friday asking everyone if i shld be there and just when i thought i had my mind all made up i decided to change it. i realised how typical that was of me. i went home to catch up on lost sleep, as much as i could. it was only an hour or so before i made the trip down to the east on the train of strangers, whose faces change everytime i open my eyes. some where along the way i was distracted by the toddler, who in her mother's arms, kept reaching out for a simple touch of me. when the train passed redhill i thought of my old apartment again while looking out. i miss that place.

everyone was there and warmed up by the time i reached and for the days that followed we played crazy card games. we took our bikes out to the jetty. we had a sumptuous dinner somewhere in bedok. and we played drinking goggles(woooot). the jjcvball gang was good company. it was a good quick trip home at some 1am, getting ride from hp. the drive down the expressway on the highway has always been most reposeful. and the dive onto bed, i never felt better.

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we saw jb taking his last walk out of the office like a free man on that day itself. he got his own thing going on out there. i picture myself and can't help but feel excited. sometimes anxious even.

o, r, d are just three very pleasing letters when put together. i'm ecstatic about the five or maybe six months i have to myself. it's hard not to be overwhelemed by that feeling fo rapture.

the office has become a rough place but still i make it a point to line four typing chairs behind the conference table, switch off the lights partially, and stay oblivious to everything as much as i can while in that posture of neutral equilibrium. i try not to snore.

it seems i would just prefer to lay by a corner, wordless, heart in a hand stashed behind, hoping someday fulfilling will come by again, soon.

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